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Stop

I don't wanna sit here and fight with you, you perverted person.  You're messing me up.  This is so stupid.  I don't wanna think @ you like this.

So

What all do I have to apologize for, now?

Did everyone find..

Di zeit ist reif

by Swedish Siw Inger?

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You wanna know something even more stupid-

I shouldn't care @ my daughter.  GO TO HELL STUPID A HA HA HA

This experiment thing is stupid.

Now my mom has glasses.  Ithought she wasn't wearing them.  Just to drive and I think still school.

Tyring to Get Better

I'm feeling better.  I just need to avoid people..  How?  What I said was maybe disapproved of by some but most don't care.

How am I gonna refresh myself if you're always talking to me?

When I say stupid

etc..

I'm speaking collectively and no one.

I'm so good

and you just SHIT at me

STUPID

STOP POKING AT ME AND TELLING ME I STARTED SOMETHING

I CAN SAY WHATEVER I WANT.  IT'S UP TO YOU TO READ IT.

You all

just hold onto negative uptight energy and don't have the big picture like me.  Ask anyone.

It is better not to..

..just come in too opened up.

Also, I don't have a social problem, other people do..

On Twitter

When I said **** I didn't mean anyone in particular, just a hazy memory of something that's not funny where I can't really seem to defend myself nor get away.

Oh

I added jk to my post on Tim Burton..the Great!

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I caught and deleted the double post @ the play.

Nitey

My Day

I'm feeling better now.  I did a recipe of chicken and corn .. and later burger, dog, and some candy, feeling okay.

"Make a Wish"

So, I wish to sing with girls my age and get famous.  I also wish to meet prestigious people for singing.  I have sung, but maybe it'd be fun to see other people like meet Sarah Brightman.  She could do a whole concert on TV!  Why not??

What's wrong with my parents today?

My mom was being mean, as usual.  I made some noises, like it hurt her.  My dad was mad cuz my mom is younge ran he wants her to like puff him up for being from a generation of something that's not popular..  Like, I did some things, and it seemed to hurt her.  I will not bow down to Sarah Brightman as younger in any way.

Problem

Now I have to worry @ a, not really crazy, but a "crazy" lady at my back for commenting that Ellen told her to dress up in a costume I liked for Halloween just to take it out on me that she thinks I'm not in her kind of crowd and control what I am in the world like that.  Why doesn't she get that?  And today I said something to her I didn't like, and it was like Ellen.

Anyway, I think she had a sweet costume, a candy lady, didn't really like it with candy all over but guess it'll make the people laugh.. maybe that was good enough for Ellen.  :{  She just doesn't like me as a person.  She likes those little teens, ultimately, like everyone, and like they have to be endorsed in her every action or naturally like everyone else.  :|

Did you know

in the Flower Duet I had to sing the soprano spot int he Alto (Mezzo) line?

So, you can tell I hate people who are mean to me from going along with the crowd.

Um

Is Ellen a human beeen?  I should be able to do "what" she does..

The bubbles meant

a ring for another beta

I found

I can give bubbling betta boy away..

I'm cancelling 3 job interviews.

So

Do you know about what I don't got?

Update

I starred on my Twitter bio the 1st Disney pass I have.

High School

I started out just wanting to get a job.

2nd year was Queen of Clubs in the school paper.

3rd year was in theater and stuff.

4th year I left the public and Baptist schools completely and joined NOCCA|Riverfront (arts school) and went to the Catholic school there and had gotten more into, with a f.e. (foreign exchange) student .. I was more wanting to do all music for Loyola in NO and was into just going and sitting @ the football games with a Letter Jacket, though no I didn't get the Letter on..  AH IT IS SO STRESSFUL LIKE HELL HERE I CAN'T RELAX LIKE THE BIG EASY

I 1st Saw "West Side Story"

at the movies with my dad in Orlando.

The Songs from "A Funny Thing Happened on the Way to the Forum"

are from when I did keyboard for other instrument parts in Slidell across the bridge from New Orleans.

I also tagged

the Lisa Kelly post.  }:}

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I was going through my stuff in case anyone out there gave a *beep* but I tagged the Sarah Brightman post.  ^66^

OK

I rated the songs-

List of Musical Theater Composers

Lerner & Loewe (sp?)
ALW - Andrew Lloyd Webber
Stephen Sondheim
Rogers & Hammerstein
Leanard & Bernstein

Weird

Ellen is pushy and stereotypical to be funny @ her being from the New Orleans area.

So

Ellen who do you wanna become, cuz it's gonna be something that's of use to me .. not oh I'm gonna be some fugly girl who doesn't give a shit @ people like Christina.

Why

does Ellen DeGeneres get a kick outta hurting me?  I think I have support that I'm not actually shit.

I can't trust what you say, like I don't think so really.  You think I am just some fugly girl.

I don't really give a fuck @ other people.. like you think I was spoiled.

More

Suspicious posting and shitting @ my future kids.

More

So why did Blogger add something stupid, a +1 in bold blue italics on the sides of these posts?

Sucky

All the talk shows suck.  They insult you for saying the truth.  Oh for God's sake go hurl yourself.

Kids Sooner to Make Sure

I am not infertile, but it was okay they said not having my female thing as strongly.

Only Thing Worthwhile

I grew up with adults around me dizzy @ if I should do gymnastics or if that's the only reason I was shit.  It was great stress doing just enough exercise and not as much as I'd like.

Problem

They keep ruining stuff of mine if I have a hard time with something.

Problem

Did someone make my YouTube playlist not keep playing?

Soo....

>^,,^<

So, Ellen, you didn't know my 1 inkling|yearning for passion WAS my fear that Pennsylvania was trashed and I'm not really from where I'm fwom!

YouTube Comment

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She walks out as if she is different. I mean like probably better but not really. Very beautiful so far.. I think she assumed that the Japanese or whatever part of Asia this is, that they couldn't be attractive, so she was more humble.

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Did you know that..

Did you know Ellen gets mad at you for something you don't know that you did wrong?

So, is it time for me to die?

Also

I hda toi go back and tag th post.

UGH I just materialized a thought that peopel could see me type my IM.

THEY DID SOMETHING ELSE

I wa sthinking of a boy from England and they turned off my cell phone early.

Funny?

I don't mean to be insulting but see how Sarah Brightman waltzes off like she's younger than everyone.

These annoying people cahaning my computer to be slow and making talkinc glicks won't stop.

Issue

If Sarah Brightman's life -is- music, then why does she act like a spoiled baby.. I mean being born in 1960?  Does it look like I can be as cool with other people around me?

My life is -not- music, it's blogging and in a way real life.

Well

I need to get out, and I will be, though..

STOP

Someone in my room said they'd kill my daughter in a maze.  I thought of something violent, and now they're gonna blame me.  I feel like hitting something.  My face doesn't feel good because of those videos being taken down.  I hate these tacky people.

So, why are my Salmen videos disappearing?

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I'm sure I'm shaped well enough to play Miss Violet Beauregarde on Charlie and the Chocolate Factory.

Who WOULD have a problem

With Sarah Brightman being a Late Boomer?  Or being even younger than your own parents?

Facebook Post

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Lisa Kelly's student

She seems nice, has an accent like mine cuz I'm Pennsylvanian but also New Yo'ker. I thought people in the South had a voice like a bell or horn or something. I thought there was a regular drawl. Is this just the adults? I know it's like that in the Northeast, NYC and Boston?

So

My 2nd computer, the internet stopped working as I was loading videos.

Problem

My dad is "weird."  He wants to give Sarah Brightman a gift of her being a Late Boomer and saying I'm shit just for the soundoff.  Why does he think I care @ him?  He doesn't really drink alcohol, but I don't know what happens when you do.

My dad is pretty neat, but he's trying to act emotional.

Question

Why are people who are older than me suddenly younger?  Maybe, it doesn't matter.  I mean, I can't just hang with the old folks.  This is really annoying.  Should I turn into a hermit?

I mean, I am just really really annoyed by older people who are @ my parents's ages + .

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No one cares how they treat me, anymore.

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So

Also, my internet keeps being slow since I moved it last.  I am guessing it is old and I dragged it on the bumpy tile that has ,aube sand there.  I know my cell phone suddenly works now.  Is this some kind of a joke?  What you want me to talk to my fish all day?  That's not what pets are for.

Since when has this fish become a big deal?  Everyone just says oh fish are easy you don't do anything but shovel out poo, well this fish doesn't poo, and every time I put a little food in the water gets murky.  I never heard of that.  I mean, I am supposed to only clean the bowl once a week.  I think they sell cheap, affordable filters, however.  I think I clean the bowl 3 times a week.  However, I sometimes feel I need to clean it more.  It also only eats like 4 times a week, not every day.  It's a betta, very sweeet, but hard to give away I bet.  I think it's bored of me, so I will contact the pet stores.  My dad wanted it, but I think he's kidding.  I happened to go in that aisle by accident.  I actually got it cuz I wanted sea monkeys, which I might get in December.  They live in a little long tube.

Dream

It was very grounded and surrounded by an aura of surrealism.  It had  lots of stress.  I just remember having seen my Gramma smile a bit kooky feeling and putting her hands around just below my shoulders.  It wa a long drema, don't remember much now.  I woke up once and went back to bed..

The room was a rustic blue, possibly hinting being shiny and like those abstract statues people make and put in front of buildings, like the squares and stuff.  There were other people.

I'm too tired to remember.

Nitey

Might go to sleep soon or lie down and listen to music and eat again.

Disney

This weekend!  A year pass.

Sous le Dame Epais (sp?)

I can already play the 1st page of the main part..  Not up to speed nor in front of someone as well.

Mobile

may or may not post

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I'm using it for Twitter.

Looking fo' this

26:13 to the end

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pMd1MaZAh5c&feature=share

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/H%C3%A9l%C3%A8ne_Grimaud

piano song

Am I really..

..running outta vocabulary?  I asked my therapist a question this morning and she said yes..

Did I tell you I just had my 1st crawfish?

The crawfish, I got a bit of a plate of.  I used my fork and fingers and quickly got most of them open - Speedy Gonzalez.  px'

Mobile Soon

may or may not post

If you think @ it, you neer kn

who will come up and take away your chances of being famous nor even a success at any task.

Well, get along, will ya love?

If you have to be blonde to "do it," when can I just even live my life..

So

Are you gonna take me seriously.. why are kids of Late Boom parents so spoiled?  We're not allowed to do what they do, watch us try.  That is a sin.  Like, they feel comfortable @ being silly and pleasured too much, and we don't seem to ever make it in what we do in the world.  Like, they are made to feel comfortable about feeling emotions, like they are so much more precious.  Then, you blame us for them not getting enough nutrition and nurturing.  A worthy topic, of course.

I also hear they suggest we feel too goofy in a bad way.  They're spoiled brats with nothing okay to say.  Everyone forgot @ us.

Caught

Forgot

I think something someone does who was upset @ me explaining what Ginny not reprimanding me but kicking me out in the end was like.

Problem

Now, it'll be stuck in the readers's head, too.

Problem

Why are you still bothering me.. and threatening me @ having 2 kids?  What do you think this is?  Look, you're the 1 being bad and nonsensical.  That kinda stuff really affects me.  That brings back shitty memories.  I've taken a break from school and should be feeling better as far as being able to have children..

Well, yea, I can say you seem to have a problem with Ginny, who got me on a psych pill.

O Wow

You're treating me like I'm stupid.  Like, oh, what I said was a big deal.  This is my blog, and it is not a big deal.  It wasn't some outrageous thing.. compared to what else is happening.  So, what would you say, instead?  See, it was just some thing to you.

Sorry

Well, sorry, if I hurt Ginny's feelings..  I take it back.  The only problem is it's just a vocabulary action and might come up somehow, like even a thought you'll notice.  Something like it.  Plus, that's how others joke around, maybe not always using a word like that.  So, it'd be nice if you figured it out.

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Problem

I can express myself without k***ing myself.  I heard clicks in the privacy of my room, and it felt like some of my fluffy face left.  My hands are on the watch, though.

It was indeed disgusting my teacher Ginny got me kicked out without saying anything.  It was mean and wrong.

QUIT THREATENING ME.  How can I get this to stop?

Edit

I made it my profile photo on Twitter.

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Clear Footage of..

Ms. Sarah Brightman on tour.

I think it's the 2nd ½.

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Tired

Need to go to bed, soon.

Facebook

Problems

My Gramma is NOT nice like she was and seemed to promise to be.

I will not sit here and f*** around on if I can feel good.. like from another person.

YouTube Comment

Sarah Brightman

link

Wow, it looks like this'll be cool when I get around to watching it. Thanks so much for posting!

Well, I just watched it and I have so much to say, noticed so much! I also love the Phantom of the Opera part. She has so many high points.. Time to Say Goodbye, beautiful, as well. I sorely wanted to record Scarborough Fair but didn't but gave a standing ovation. Thank you so much for sharing! :)

Mobile

may or may not post

Nauseous

Not disgusted.. was eating Indian food and had to leave, almost hurled.  I need to start cooking, nothing to eat.

My throat was too sensitive drinking water.

Bought 2 Songs

Eperdu
Hijo de la Luna

by Sarah Brightman

Forum

Ruining the World

My uncles and I have big ear lobes.

Weren't you already aware of the importance of not retreating to oh I hafe an older mom so I don't have to want the Late Baby Boom generation .. that they had a more pristine, spoiled rotten childhood??

Getting on Top

I found my dad thinks not even my job can put me in the proper position of power over others, including if he's in my life..

Comment

Failed Adults

Adults in my life always say to do something and then act like it's too late and like we aren't thinking independently, but I sure showed them what my business does.

This sounds like Jimmy Fallon.  However, from him, I find perversion.  :(  I mean, like he thinks we need it.

Job Applications

I applied online for 3 jobs.

1 is in Miami, an office job.  The other is an office job here for people moving, like students, in Orlando.  The 3rd is an "office" job @ the Hilton.  They didn't have no requirements.

I M O N M Y D I E T - no more negative energy and poison

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Workout

I got the intense core fusion workout for $10 to view online via Amazon.com.  It has different sections over an hour.  This 1st was more stretchy and between 5 and 10 minutes.

It's not all @ core, though, but seems to stress it.  There are other cool DVDs ofit.

Twitter

Edited Layout + Bio

Problem

I said it was disgusting that my teacher kicked me outta her class with no warning.  It seems everyone knows I said that and that it wasn't okay.  She has lots of weird ideas, was mean to me for showering and dressing up nicely for each class, which I think is not a pleasant thing to say nor pay attention to like it's true.  I exercised in the morning at the college.

Oh, the problem is I ended up with other people sending me to a mental hospital and being stuck on medicine as long as I am with my parents!  I knew that could happen.

What's wrong with me saying disgusting, maybe she just feels guilty?  I mean, she didn't warn me.  She wanted me out that way.  I was in trouble for no reason.  She did annoy me a lot, and sometimes I was upset.  It made me better, though, going to school there.

Nitey

in a while..

Mobile

may or may not post

Work

I'm applying to work in Miami Beach, see if I get it..

':{

Why is everyone m.. to the fact I can't sing as in private lessons as a child?  I did sing as a child..  I was an adamant learner.

Twitter

I edited the layout.

Website

Website - Quotes

Thinking ahead, that works.  Do what you want in the end now.

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A beat can sound cool even if you don't know music-

Weird?

Is Sarah Brightman's obsession with space a bit babyish, but not in an insulting way..?  It's nice, though.  I just saw an ad.

Huff!

I saw that smile on Ellen's face thinking I figured something wrong in NOLA.

That's so humiliating like my aunt thinking of how my life has been.  So rude, too, though.  She's constantly an annoyance..

Tis Tis

My aunt born sometime April 1960 and Ellen DeGeneres are very rude @ tween daughters.  My aunt constantly.

Sorry it sounds like an insult, but maybe you see the point of the idea, too.  I just had to talk @ it somehow and am busy..

Hm

The tweeny bopper of Material Girl has a totally hoarse voice that makes her sound like a young steed.

Ugh

Sick from llallo'een.

TV Show

How do things like this end up, anyway?

How do you think most people get by by like not posting online when they're mad at you?

The Flower Duet

The Flower Duet

Sous  le  dôme épais
Under the dome thick

Soo oo le e dawm ay ay pay


Où    le  blanc jasmin
Where the white jasmine

Oo lay blawn jazz mawn


À  la  rose s’assemble
At the rose together

Ah ah la a rose sawn blah


Sur   la  rive  en fleurs,
About the shore in flowers

Sewr la reev ahn fleyu


Riant    au matin
laughing to morning

Ree ahn too metawn


Viens, descendons ensemble.
come   descend    together

Vee awn dee sawn dawn sawn blah



Doucement glissons
gently    floating

Doo Smo Glee Sone (S'ne)


De  son flot charmant
Its risings  charming

Di sone flore char mont


Suivons   le  courant fuyant:
Following the current fleeing:

Swee vone leh-ooh core aun fwee aunt (aun)


Dans lon de frmissante,
In   lon    simmering,

Done lone enduh freh mee saunt (saun)


Dune main nonchalante,
On   hand nonchalant

Deeoon menoonchahlaunt

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Re: Please dont

by Invincible_Darkhorse101
I'd have said it less bluntly, but yeah, agreed.

by ChristinaAnnBarrett-OrlFL1986
Katy Perry thinks she acts English because she wants to be Ms. Mary Poppins in a hopefully decided remake..

by Invincible_Darkhorse101
I'd prefer the lesser evil twin, Zooey Deschanel.

by ChristinaAnnBarrett-OrlFL1986
I guess I'd prefer to learn to be more English..

Zoey Deschanel is cute.. She has small thick fingernails. I saw on Ellen, her nails painted at the award..

by catman56
A pity she can't act.

by ChristinaAnnBarrett-OrlFL1986
[laugh]

Do you get excited to see what you find?  Someone being mean but not really.

Watcha Think

What do you think of uselessly wasting my time or yours dwelling on something I did that wasn't that bad as anyone made it out to be?

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The Soapbox

Re: If you hate america.

No, I live htere 

Religion

Re: If God is unchangeable (immutable)

Well, start off the way you want to be, don't wait for the end.

Health 
Re: Question about the definition of medical privacy
I am sorta stuck in a home, with parents. I wanna leave. My mom said I have to take psych pills "because the doctor said," but it's ultimately my decision.

Re: Weight Loss

Well, start off slowly, like instead of what you usually eat, just go 1 step down. I actually took a big step and eventually would get a salad each dinner.

The Soapbox

My Gramma..

Well, I thought they wanted me to do it..
--
.. some people experimenting on me ..

Waring Me Away

Why does my Gramma seem to do that?  Why isn't my aunt talking to me?  She might, this time.  I wanted my cousin online not sending private letters, the last of which she did not respond..

but my gramma is old like she talks @ age.  She thinks she has no choice but to hurt me, seems she took advantange and "is not fogir

Edit

I added the full names.

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Sarah Brightman Concert

Thank you so much for posting this. The concert was just last night! Everyone was recording this, and I felt left out. This was so beautiful I watched it twice so far! I hope the views get up. This piece she sings it sounds so melodic and smooth! It is so divine and perfected. Her movements, as well, are very good. If you're interested, I'm wanting to add 1 basic ballet class to my weekly schedule. I also am a singer. Wow, I loved the effects, too. Such divine singing! :) :) :)

Edit

I fixed the link to the 1st song on my Twitter.

Website

Website - Ethnicity at the bottom of About Me

Nitey

Edit

I forgot to rate Titanic - 6/10.  The 1 I sang, the video on YouTube.

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What Else Disgusts Me :@

When older people who are attractive all push away younger people like me for reasons like I told them my real race.

Makes Sense

What I hate is older people suddenly acting all psycho like I did something because of Tim Burton and Charlie and the Chocolate Factory.  I give not 1 ounce of approval for these attitudes in different ways..

Letting Out My Feelings @

Sarah going into space, I just feel she has a multi-dimensional attitude @ it that she cannot seem to suppress.  I wonder why she wants to go through all that.

What would you do if you were rich??  Hm, I dunno, maybe I'd get popular.

YouTube

I added a song to the public appearance part.

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I also made it my Twitter profile picture.

Why are you all romancing to my mom says I'm shit?

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Monday, please come..

I have to call 2 schools for transcripts they never sent and call 2 schools to ask what I need to do and how to get an appeal..

Not Sure What's Wrong

My room is supposedly pretty clean, upset @ having 2 computers, still because 1 ran out of room.  It still won't save stuff.  I feel I need to get outta the house to make my life better, even with my room still at some level of limbo.

Speakers

I played some loud music, and I just noticed these speakers actually crackle..  It's hard for me to change it, too.  I don't find this okay.  What happened?

So Cute

I was right.  That cool singer Hayley Westenra is loved for being cute, not more intellectual and inhibited- Oh God.

Update

I added the songs to my website as Music Songs, at the end.

Update

I edited the writing and added the link to Dancing Queen.

Update

I added more to the Twitter bio.

Twitter

I changed my bio section. }:]

Edit

I edited my webiste on Twitter so it works, added the hyperlink thing..

Twitter

New Layout

It's like

It's like an o.. waiting to happen.

So

Kids with older parents born @ 1997 or 1998 may have older parents but are still a younger style and younger people..

How Tippy!!!!

A HUG?

Mo' (More)

https://itunes.apple.com/us/album/girls-just-wanna-have-fun/id160721184?i=160721464

https://itunes.apple.com/us/album/dancing-queen-mini-disco-halloween/id706051116?i=706051733

https://itunes.apple.com/us/album/mickey/id330303590?i=330303701

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What do you think of..

..Madonna's song by these girls as a "tribute??"

https://itunes.apple.com/us/album/material-girl/id356982189?i=356982203

They are sweet.

I feel like Cher when I sing it.

So

Do you ever wish some lunatic would just shut up and stop going through shit?

Twitter

So

How do you wanna explain my mood?  I think I got more mad when my finger was affected by someone on the phone.  Like, it will never stick back.  It just feels a bit different if I think @ it too much and play with it, like hurt or on a stick.

Wow, check it out.

Someone from LA already loaded some songs!  What's Sarah doing now, just walking around, working out, swimming @ a star hotel?

Oh, no!

You think there's a disputable idea of me constantly looking up Sarah Brightman concerts.  Well, I do need to clean my room a bit more, too.  I have stuff out, but it's pretty clean.  I don't do it all the time, but like I'm doing it right now cuz I'm bored.  I wonder I think I'm just gonna go to Disney and try to get in the parade for now.  Sing on my own or college?  I might apply just in case, get transcripts sent out that weren't sent.

Shout! Shout! Let it all out!

I was wondering.. I come across so many misfortunate things in this world.  All the cool celebrities I nit pick from the thorns refuse to Tweet, but Ellen DeGeneres Tweets but not no one else.  It's just me and her..

So

AND THEN YOU STOP AFTER I GO SO FAR AS TO POST @ IT

Oh, sorry, now you care I said something @ my dad I didn't mean in the way you'd think..

STOP

I keep getting threatening noises in my house, little clicks, the subtle ways of the computer loading.

I didn't do anything, leave me alone.  You're just mean all the time just about.  Then you say something stupid like I'd give shit for my dad telling you to do it.

Stupid

Why did I have such a hard time after being kicked outta Music Education?  I didn't know what to do with my life, not as adament.

Humph!

Wow BURTON

Just make sure I can't be a successful "a-dult" when I was a Music Education major.  I am great.  Everyone says so.  ':|

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Well

I'm gonna have my deLuxe pizza.. like I had a stromboli @ the mall

At Least

I have the support of the general people in public I'll see when I go out.  Just my mom.. and whomever, like I dunno, people online like Twitter some of them.

So Sad

Who knows what this means for people who know me.  To me, it just means I need to eat better food.  I've been watching my sleeping since vacationing.

What else.. What else..

Oh, I -was- in a good mood before.  It just means I'll lose my present type of relationships.  I can even smeel the anger in me.  Maybe, people thought I was stupid for not plugging the stuff in in my dad's computer, it's all ready, just didn't do it, yet.

So

How much do you enjoy being the 1 everyone turns their head on in public?  I have a jolly time at times, though.

More

There's a little ticking noise that's annoying sometimes from my computer screen.

Also, my mom kept yelling like I'm telling Dad.. who just says call 911.  I was like why do you keep lashing out like that.

What People Think of Me

They seem to blame the people at the pizza place.  I really wasn't lashing out, cursing at them in my head, just telling myself what's what.  I was upset at the people tagging me there..

I got home and violently washed my hands, though, checked the faucet to make sure it didn't "break" any.  I kept telling my mom, like you're making fun of me for being upset, again.  She said I was complaining overall.  I don't have a normal tone of voice cuz I've no one to talk to.

Dream

It's hard to remember.  I remember Ellen showing her Mama as a ghost with a pirate patch, a ghost cat.  She was really small, like a cartoon, in the end.

What else?  Ah.  We were in a certain room doing something I remember now.

I might have to lie down, again.  I need to eat breakfast later..

Problem

Why is my dad talking again?

My parents are threatening me.  They want me out but to control my life.

SHUT UP MY DAD IS BEING MEAN AGAIN

O No

Sorry Ellen I love you

So

I had even met a cute guy, today.

Problem

How I talk has been affected by a shit dad who likes speaking.  I tried to say order and it got messed up by your shit good for nothing goddamn teens.

Problem

STOP DENYING ME AND MY DAD ACTING LIKE HE GAVE ME PEOPLE IT WAS TIM BURTON

Problems

Let's see what's on Ellen today, the rest.

Problem

Stop threatening me.  I don't give a shit @ any Pennsylvanians.

Problem

Stop telling me I did anything wrong.  I deserve what I deserve, and you all just treat me like a nigger.  Give me back!  I didn't do anything.

Problem

Ellen, why do you think you get to feel all funny.  I say you don't just you.

Problem

You niggers stop making a big deal of everything.

Why did my dad just talk to me?

What stupid thing do you wanna know?

You wanna know if I've m..?  Yes.  A lot in Orlando.  As a kid more before I moved from Florida to the New Orleans area.  What does it mean?  I felt it coming as a kid.  Now, I mean I had gotten addicted thinking it would send me to Heaven.

Disclaimer

The former Ellen DeGeneres, whatever that may be, is not stupid?  Just mean @ the n word thing.  How do you know shit @ me, anyway?  I didn't make myself shit!  Shape your life up?  What's it like?  You just don't like me?

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Didn't I just say to shut up?

I want my life back, stop it!

Problem

I said to stop, Ellen.

Shut up and leave me alone you stupid people!

Are you trying to ruin my life?

I was all happy, but my mom came home bothering me and then telling me I did something wrong it seemed, upset @ the people acting like I'm like my dad in a bad way Ellen thinks so it seems..  Well, I mean, I got over it, but they wouldn't quit.  I felt better later, but they gave my mom the wrong order.  I feel unsafe..

What is this?

What's wrong with stupid Ellen?  I didn't do anything.  Stupid like erratical Johnny Depp.

STOP

STOP ACTING CUTE

I SAID STOP

Wow

Ellen just craps in my life and goes on her show like nothing happened.  I mean my mom has been weird and something because of her.  Sorry, I just wanted to say crap, sissies.

SHUT UP

STOP MAKING FUN OF ME YOU'RE NOT ***Y

Soo

I didn't do anything.  Why is Ellen at such peace?  With her show?  Shitting in my life, whoever it was.. she did but I don't wanna connect the word to her.

Problem

People are addicted to hurting me when I get mad, and Ellen probably did it on purpose.

What is this shit, anyway?  You're all too dumb.  No, I am not talking @ anyone.

Problem

My "young" mom gets so mad at me.  She had an even younger mom.

Also

She was attractive.

Question

Why was my dad's youngest sister so happy??  I was never treated like her.

Wale! (Well)

My dad took me to 2 cities he grew up in in northern Pennsylvania, and we saw 2 movies in NY.

Weird

My gramma is mad at me for not seeing|talking to her as much before, but at the same time she seems not to hold any interest in me as a human being relaxed..  Why go back up and see all those watching eyeballs - hold up - THEY DID THE MASH - THEY DID THE MONSTER MASH - THEY DID THE MASH - Why'd I say that?  My gramma like kept pushing my cheek bone, all I can forgive her for for it is if she dies.

HA

My old choir director would never be in a choir, and Sarah Brightman would never sing for her.

Question

If Ellen DeGeneres would like me, why does my dad act like he's more of an accomplished human being?

What are ya'lls moms and dads like?

I know my dad is pretty ***y, esp. with young people.

My mom is considered so sweet and so nice to have had the pleasure of viewing.

YouTube Comment

Sarah Brightman - Concert - Scarborough Fair

link

I loved it so much how she did it for us at ours.

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Update

I added titles to the photos.

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LOL

Guess what's funny for me?  I heard a car and it sounded like a big, nice person saying, "NOW -- THERE .. IS .. !!!NO ONE!!!"  You know, the joke @ people from Florida not being as active in the brain.

So

Did my parents allow me to be raised to do anything like a normal person?  I am normal.  If I'm not, it's just their fault and other families have their own problems not caused by the existence of mine.  You should have gotten that straight.

Update

I rearranged the tags at the top, a mistake!

These Things

I do get over them, sometimes when I find out, sometimes might "feel like crying" but not do it..  Often, I get over it after my reaction..  Isn't that not as bad as otherwise?

What I Did

I just felt mad, didn't mean anything.  I ended up not cursing much, but I was cleanin and throwing stuff away.  I don't even know if I cursed nor how I avoided it precisely.  I didn't think violent thoughts.  I just was violent in my attitude in some platform.  I just felt anger, not something I made, more of a reaction than a response.  It was very much a reaction.  It seems that the medicine I'm on isn't enough for this family member or relative.

I got the message.

I'm supposed to post things that bother me rather than get mad later.  Why did my aunt fall from the sky and through our roof (no hard feelings, just joking to be witty or funny-ish..) and like seem to wreck my birthday party with my family, with whom I felt grateful to be with at the time?  It seemed to ruin our bond.

Then, my gramma is acting like this is a problem and I didn't even tell her.  My other aunt is dipping in on the issue in ways, as well, I don't wanna think @ quite so..

Movie

Ender's Game.  It was so funny when the kids were all on 1 side looking at the adults feeling so uncomfortable on the other.  People would blame me that I feel like I make fun of them.  It seems there's too much give and take with some people.

Back

I got an Elsa doll.

I wonder why I was so mad, yesterday.. what..  It just made me think weird thoughts.  That 1 thing wasn't why but the whole box office will see.  Oh well.. whatever happens happens..  I'm not really mad now.  I wonder @ when I do the dishes, like ironing something would tip me.

Wah ah ah now I got a bad blog, too.  I found that people were happy I talked @ it, I think.  Just not to get too upset @ anything.

Mobile

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Bean an Adult (Being an Adult)

It seems I don't let people see the child side of me, cuz then I'd be in a bind.

Story Time..Alas

So, Christina and Sarah are both kids.  There's a younger girl named Jackie.  Mama Elizabeth came in with a load of other ladies.  Sarah and Jackie went over for a kiss, while Christina shook her head and closed the lid on the laundry washing machine.  Christina had a friend named Chloe.  She went over to Mama Elizabeth, at this time too.

Christina was going to school for harp and lived life on this earth as a harpist prodigy.

It was time for the caravan for the festival again.  Chloe and Christina were alone in their room, and Christina put her big paw on Chloe's shoulder.  "As if!" Chloe said, and they both kissed for some reason and they lay down..  Sarah came in, more @ the same age and they exchanged notes.

Christina was looking for Jackie by some strange instinct, but she was not to be found.  Christina went over to Elizabeth and they cleaned the rest of the kitchen, and Christina slipped away into bed.

The caravan came.  They all road along.  There were some wolves, and then men took out the trap and trapped them.  It was Halloween that night.  Elizabeth picked up Sarah and Christina picked up Jackie.

Finally, they arrived.  Christina went down the Tunnel of LLove.

Christina took Elizabeth's hands, and she cupped her hands around her face and swiftly left.

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Wow, that is beautiful lights.. I love this concert tour! She is such a pretty, English singer! I guess she's still both modern and classic-ish. Thank you so much for posting. What do you think of it? Any other singers out there?

Don't you hate how adults think all that matters is their parental generation?  Like, ooh, what was that?  Like, go away, you're not cooler.  Wait, no, don't all leave me!  Did I have to say that to not make Ellen go away?

Funny?

I said I wanted to see my Gramma, not talk on the phone, to my dad.  Why is she moving down to Florida?  I don't want what I think and say to be why for things like this.  She's a bit grumpy and sorta restrained, like she has nothing to offer to me.  She isn't like exercising much but doesn't work.  She instead is bugging Barb in Florida.

Interesting Article

on Obama

http://www.nbc-2.com/story/19954218/obama-halloween-decoration-causing-stir

A veteren lost an eye and wants to use his freedom!  He made a hangman display of Obama, so he's hanging from a tree.  It's a game people like to play on the chalk or dry erase board.

1: Scumps!
2: Scumps!
1 & 2: A toast to the night.
The outlook is rosy.
The future is bright.
Our children will marry.
Our kingdoms unite.
Scumps.. Scumps.. Scu-umps!

What I Found

It's hard to find the good people out there..  I wonder if others are brave enough for fame.  I know I am.  I just want my life..

Question

Why does everyone keep correcting me, still?  I feel overcorrected but like to correct myself.  It sure is weird, these days, though.  I couldn't even think going online with all the mess, after 2005, when Charlie and the Chocolate Factory came out.

I might just go to sleep, soon.  1 part of the neighborhood is enough.

Whew! xp

I'm so tired.

It's time to trick-or-treat!

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Costume

Ellen had a neat costume, let's wait and see what Christina does.

O Wow

Ellen I love you!  I just watched your show, again!  =]  I love it!

OK

I'm moving my stuff, now!  I might make it!

Well, I was upset I felt uncontrollably upset, could not chill out, was cleaning up and thought of something suggestive that others find was a type of message.  It might be something she likes, but I don't think so, in a way.  I mean, maybe, but I don't think it was what she specifically intended for.  Maybe, she likes Cher, though, who knows, who knows..

I am taking a stand

against Late Boomers and their parents.

My gramma set me up to get mad so she can knock me out in a programmed way.  She was just plain nasty.  How can I deal with this?  It already happened.  It's her fault.  All this shit because of your ordeal with Nell Burton and me calling her the N word..though you didn't say anything @ it but signaled me to do it.

Well

OK, I jogged and have started a list of groceries.  Looks like cabbage soup, which I could have made now, and the lecipe :| (recipe.)

Well

You can't fix it..

..and I wanna jog though my dad will be here too soon-bye.

Weird

Now, I want the balloons I saw on the costume on my birthday..  This isn't funny, I know someone's laughing, depends on who, though..

Question

I found a nice shirt..  it looks like a party dress..  Did someone in the experiment get them to do it?  What if in the end I don't have anything I like to wear that was made to be sold?

What I Do Now

If you were wondering, I have to tell myself stuff so I don't get more mad, like oh I am not doing that, oh I don't approve, no, I'm not doing it..

Problem

I told you I was upset, but I didn't think anything violent.  I don't even know why I'm posting this.

Question

Now, I noticed Bethenny is a candy girl.  I am an Ellen fan, I know they planned this for me.  I will not put up with all these weird things, but I mean of course it's okay..  I don't like the attitude I am sensing.  I wanted a clean, new way of blogging.

Well

I posted this cuz I was so upset @ my aunt.  I am also upset @ the message.  It's very inappropriate.

I will not do it.

I am getting outta this experiment trap.  My dad is the 1 who is gonna be beaten theoretically for always being so intruding, @ me though.  I forget what it was, but his making up stuff won't "hold over."

Problem

I found that these people experimenting on me or whatever will do something because of this.  I didn't really do anything and figured out each time why I felt so bad.  I was doing the dishes and don't usually do that.  I did them yesterday, too.  I know I get a temper when I do things like ironing, but lately it's been rather easy.

Well

I was upset because so much has centered on something that actually does't matter - my aunt invited herself on my birth date when I was 1/2 her age, but I just wanted a special time with family.  I now go out with my other aunt for a concert each birthday, and my gramma called me for like a year and bothered me.  I just visited her again.  Something that will astound you to know is Sarah Brightman came to give a concert, next is Josh Groban who we aren't seeing for some reason, and around my birthday is the despicable Cher who had adoring fans.  Are they feeling for Sarah Brightman inappropriately for no reason?  I know it was the wrong thing to do, but what made me mad and kept not feeling okay was @ my aunt having importance in a suggestive way.  I didn't tell anything to her but was hurt and told my family..

Well

I'm reserving a ride to the Disney auditions.  I am not getting there as early nor leaving as late.  I'll leave 4 hours from when auditions start..

Well, it's scheduled, but it's so early.

Mood

I wonder if I need to go for an ea'ly mo'ning joge (early morning jog.)

And as for me

The Disney parade would help with my performance skills.  I don't know that maybe it's better than a small role in "Finding Dory" because Ellen DeGeneres is Dory.  It would help make me less shy, though Tinkerbell doesn't talk.

Set & Focused

I really need to lose weight, think I could make it @ Disney.  I don't know why my mom made me fat.  My room I just need a bit more sprucing, got the chords piled up, and wanna change computer tables to the 1 that doesn't shake.  Guess this big table will be used for a variety of things.  Something else I need is a hat stand for sweaters and stuff.  I have an extra little table for the fish bowl, I see, if I sew, maybe same for the rat, need to buy another maybe cuz my harp is on 1.  I just had a hot dog and am making a hamburger.  Unhappy, need to make a list to shop.

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Plan

Well, I found 2 more agencies, gotta be careful cuz if I apply and don't make it, no more left.  I am getting the impression I'm good enough compared to others or something but am not being accepted.  I just am not ready, maybe.  I go to audition, and they think I'm fat or something.  I think I will, though, apply for the Disney parade cuz I'm so restless.  If I get much thinner, I can apply for "Finding Dory," see if I'm ready for the Disney parade auditions for Tinkerbell, would be nice for life now.  My mom had me apply for a job, so.. help from an agency.  Also, I'm so hungry like for a soda or a snack or something.  I was dieting, but sometimes I'm not.  I use money for things other than food, too, like new clothes.  If I know there's something I really like, I can come back, later.

I have to

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move the computers to the sturdy table and I guess use the other table for the fish and a rat and my art.  Not sure where I will sew.  My dad is supposed to take 1 computer away.

Problem

My typing seems to shake the table now with my dad's computer and machine on it.  I'm trying not to shake, as much, but it's a bit hard, not too too bad, though.  I am just too tired, and tomoreow's Hallo'een.

The Show

Wow, that was a nice man.  It's so much nicer watching since coming back from NYC.

Nitey

I might watch "The Ellen DeGeneres Show," though.  Tomorrow's Halloween!  I have big plans.  =]

I'm on YouTube!

I created several interesting video groups.

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Oh, no!

I've left my TV connector on and my remote stopped working, though it still lights up.

So

Who is singing the phantom for Sarah Brightman?

He seemed a bit nervous.  I'd want the person on my tour to be recognized, you know famous.

Not that I need to say anything else, but like I don't feel good enough to tour with say Charlotte Church.  She sings so cutely, and I can't be that pristine.  Remember, though, a long time ago it was more open to who can sing, not just the person who is famous?  I don't know how else to talk @ it.  Maybe it's because of the 90s.  They were harsh on all the kids, mostly, I think, the up and coming famous ones.

To scoop up the rest of what you are thinking, let me add I am not worse than Charlotte Church, but I am not better, just each better in different ways.

Wow

I liked the piano and violin writer girl on Ellen.  I don't just repeat 1 thing when I write.  I thought @ tricks and didn't remember specific notes and forgot now but could dig something up.

What I'm Gonna Do

My nails are drying.  I might try to dress up and sing.  I put the spray on Sheer Blonde and it looked more sandy but more light.  I wonder if I can look for some music and lie down.

What She Found

I guess Sarah Brightman found.. why did I say that?

Well, you found that I am just someone who says to do the right thing and be cool.  I am not really an entity.

Another Question for

Ellen.

I mean, yea you are smart where you are from, but are these people clean?

Wale! (Well)

My room is pretty clean.  The fish is a bit far away.  I deall should not have 2 computers in the end and wish I had smaller tables.  Gotta use what we have.  I know it'll work out.

Also

Yes, I want all you Late Boomers to have kids.

If you think I'm not suited for..

..ballet and classical singing, which I do on my own, then would you literally, please, right now introduce those you dubbed worthy so I can go on with my muddled, little life?

Since I talked @ that girl, I'll talk @ this girl.

Does Jackie Evancho think she's better than everybody else, you'd say but then realize it's overrated?  Does she think we can't sing?

Mobile

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Plan

I think I'm gonna go for a jog and nap so as not to ruin my Halloween.  Physical activity used to keep me or keeps me in a good mood.

Stupidity

Maybe, I have problems, but you don't fix it by being mean to me.

What am I forgetting?  I mean, if you thought someone were that great then they wouldn't be making everything worse and being overly careful.

No, I am not calling anyone stupid, and it doesn't look like I'll necessarily discuss this.  I actually was thinking of someone else or just really the idea of people in general "who do this sorta thing for a living."  :}

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Christina Joanna Barrett shared The Ellen DeGeneres Show's status.

8 seconds ago

Me: Why do dogs hate Halloween? Dressing up is a hassle.

ellentv: Why do ghosts hate to go to prom? They have no body to dance with. #ClassicJokeWednesday

UGH! xP

It's..

the 2 PPM songs by the 2 Asians!

Where Have All the Flowers Gone
Blowing in the Wind

by South Duet

They sound like white Chinese.

The words are in Chinese, like the writing found on the CD cover.

"Here's the plan."

I listen to the music whilst I clean my room, and when I rearrange the computers and fish bowl my speakers might crack angain.

Clean Clean

You know, I don't like the old, old singing cuz I got tired of it.  I'm gonna sing after I can clean all this stuff in my room.  :|

Bias

bias

I can't believe people judge you based on what someone else did, your parents.  People use you having a crappy home as an excuse to put you down and raise others over your value.

IMDb

Personal Judgement

If someone is attracitve and accomplished, it doesn't mean they are always right.  You're find they're not as versatile as you thought yet themselves must lead a better life.

Also, it's best to veer and steer away from judging how "attractive" any one is.

Going Berserk

I need to clean, wanna eat some thing around..

You know..

I wans't just a singer, I had a normal life.

YouTube Comments

Scarlett the British Soprano

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At 15, you sound as old as me singing.

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This was my big debut as a singing major in college. They loved me @ 18.

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I used to always like performing like this in Talented Music. I am so used to covering for messing up from theater and singing when I posted it online. I wish we could sing together. I trust you and you're respectful with talent.

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This was always a good song to sing. It makes me interested in what you look like. :)

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Well, you're a beautiful human being. :) My advice is to listen to advice to really make it. I've sung since I was 7 but did it mostly no private lessons. I loved arts and music.

What's Funny

I used to love Ave Maria, but I was a pianist and got bored alas..

She's like..

Sarah Brightman, from England.. That explains everything.  3)

What I Think of Scarlett

I think she is .. just trying to make others feel like they can't sing, the way it used to be.  Well, I just said some people can't sing in some way.  With me, things come and go, though.  It's never too late to play the piano, though?

So..

..If I have sung better than most everyone, then what are you shooting for trying to **** me "not doing 'my job??..'"

You know, others can't sing and it's a dangerous tool.

Wanna **** me?

People are so nasty to me @ not chosing JUST acting or JUST singing..

Update

I addeed a Singers section to my website.  8I

I guess we haven't

reached the goals of the 90's.  Someone's out there, not parent, not a baby, not your lover (luvah.)

OK OK

Is there ANY good music out there ) ) )

Rushing

People rush too much to get themselves out on YouTube and end up having an unfortunately in their opinion a crappy channel.

Regret

I feel so bad for, well, lots of things, but right now a healing wound of me flirting.

So..

I've been cleaning today.  I did the dishes, soaked the baking items, threw the garbage away and put in the nice, new bags~  ;]

Schedule

I think I wanna clean up while I wait .. I mean before I watch "The Ellen DeGeneres Show," again.  I have a feeling I won't be finished with all my stuff but have a neat room with the fish and future small hopefully white rat in a good position.

When will that be?  Tomorrow is Halloween.  So, I'll try to watch it I know hopefully tomorrow, not sure, just can't get how to do this cuz you see I have 1 corner for singing away from the garage door and other stuff.  So the TV is next to me by the garage door, which is next to my sofa.  So, fishy can't go between me and the TV because the machine I leave on the floor next to the screen so the chords will all reach.  Hm, I just realized how long this table is..

TV

So, I just watched "Bethenny" while I did breakfast and matched all my clean socks.  I'm cleaning my room.  Then, I turned on "The Voice" recording.  I was afraid of watching Jimmy Fallon and was a bit taken over thinking @ Colbert.  I didn't watch "The Ellen DeGeneres Show," yet.  I was gonna actually move my furniture around again, 1st, cuz when I put the fish further away, I heard its rubbery body slam on the glass of its bowl.

Update

I edited the border color.  It was a softer blue.

Update

I reordered the people near the bottom of the People section in my website, well, right above "the bottom line.."  I also added a link to my website on the side of my blog.

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